Article: 63455 of alt.support.depression From: "DaKitty" Newsgroups: alt.support.depression References: Subject: Re: dammit, sometimes reality sucks. Lines: 31 X-Priority: 3 X-MSMail-Priority: Normal X-Newsreader: Microsoft Outlook Express 6.00.2600.0000 X-MIMEOLE: Produced By Microsoft MimeOLE V6.00.2600.0000 Message-ID: Date: Thu, 26 Jun 2003 12:28:57 -0700 NNTP-Posting-Host: 68.5.248.142 X-Complaints-To: abuse@cox.net X-Trace: fed1read01 1056655730 68.5.248.142 (Thu, 26 Jun 2003 15:28:50 EDT) NNTP-Posting-Date: Thu, 26 Jun 2003 15:28:50 EDT Organization: Cox Communications Path: news.meer.net!sea-read.news.verio.net!dfw-artgen!sjc-peer.news.verio.net!news.verio.net!newsfeed.berkeley.edu!ucberkeley!newstransit.mitre.org!news.tufts.edu!logbridge.uoregon.edu!snoopy.risq.qc.ca!chi1.webusenet.com!news.webusenet.com!peer02.cox.net!cox.net!p01!fed1read01.POSTED!not-for-mail Xref: archive.mv.meer.net alt.support.depression:63455 "BoingBoingBoing!" wrote in message news:r9cmfvcpdfrmnspenf09l0sun661lm7lgr@4ax.com... > I will likely never be the person I wanted to be (especially, > successful in a career and financially self-sufficient). Mostly > because I am too sick to become that person. Secondly, because I have > always lacked positive RL support. > > I have honestly done the best I could, far as personal responsibility > and belief in myself. > > Sometimes the pain is so acute that I do stupid things. So far I've > been lucky and not incurred too much damage. > > I'm not ready to give up. There's way too much in life I still want. > I don't have any idea how I'll get it, but I want it, and that in > itself is worth sticking around for. > > Sometimes I wish I could find a little RL encouragement. Just a > little. Just enough to think I might matter to someone other than > myself, and for more than being useful or some superficial crap. I > honestly don't know where to look. > When you open up to people more, you'll be surprised to just how much encouragement you'll find. But, you also have some misconceptions that are preventing you from opening up more. You me motioned a new shrink a few months ago. You still doing that? Are you clicking with him/her? Is he/she understanding you?